the setting.

Mary-Lou giving a short tour of the ship to some of the bccsc people.
christmas decorations are up (: but main street is relatively empty.

when one experiences something better,

sometimes, there is a sudden realisation of the inadequacies that are obscenely present in one's life.

and other times, there is just this sudden wave of disappointment over the current state of affairs, even if one does not always know what is wrong.

i think thats where i am now.