cliches - into the light

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops/ What if Your healing comes through tears/ And what if a thousand sleepless nights/ Are what it takes to know You’re near/ What if my greatest disappointments/ Or the aching of this life/ Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy/ And what if trials of this life/ The rain, the storms, the hardest nights/ Are Your mercies in disguise.

"you need people but you dont trust them... you make choices for them so they cant disappoint you. " Nikita.

 I don’t feel that it is necessary to know exactly what I am. The main interest in life and work is to become someone else that you were not in the beginning. If you knew when you began a book what you would say at the end, do you think that you would have the courage to write it? What is true for writing and for a love relationship is true also for life. The game is worthwhile insofar as we don’t know what will be the end. 

You shouldnt miss people who dont miss you, right?

A true friend is someone who never gets tired of listening to your pointless dramas over and over again."

"It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it’s so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn’t come back. You’re left so alone that you can’t explain. Damn, there’s nothing like that, is there? I’ve been there and you have too. You’re nodding your head." -- Henry Rollins (The Portable Henry Rollins)


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just some quotes that have really stuck; today and the many yesterdays.
because i've run out of words to say. and i'm running out of the desire to fix this.
songs that used to make me catch a breath and prayerfully mull over, sad to say, have become songs that i sometimes refuse to listen to. i'm at a loss in this newfound status quo.