in the quietness of the night.

the humidity is oppressive tonight.
as are some of the things that crowd my mind.

decisions that have been made, those that should have, but weren't made, and the ones yet to come.
do they define us?
the bad decisions and the un-decisions - they plague me. even though i know it does me no good to dwell on them because the guilt comes flooding back. relentlessly, the memories demand answers to the unanswerable questions. eyes that tell the whole story and yet, keep so many things under veil.

yes, I know God redeems and I have seen Him at work. But I have not lived long enough to see what a truly, completely redeemed event looks like. Will the perpetrators prevail? Is there true reconciliation? the results so far have been encouraging. and more importantly, they have reminded me that the results dont matter. my journey with God matters a whole lot more.

so where does my portion lie? and in a throwback question - will our paths really never be aligned again? ...

the thoughts will continue tomorrow. when i am procrastinating on my photo processing once more.