wanderer.
floater.
what is the point of it all?
Lord, I do not feel very loved - by You, nor by the people around me. And I feel guilty when I say this - because, how can I even say this?
I am so flawed, despicable really.
Many avenues of distraction - so that I feel better, in a manipulated way.
What dream did You give me, Lord?
Promises of bearing fruit, yes, promises that I am a planting of Yours, that too. Dream? Life? Is all that I am? Why does ministry flush right up against this whole idea of relating with people; with friends?
I'm. not. good. at. this.
And really, not good at much.
Why am I back in myself again?
And no, going out with him does not help.
floater.
what is the point of it all?
Lord, I do not feel very loved - by You, nor by the people around me. And I feel guilty when I say this - because, how can I even say this?
I am so flawed, despicable really.
Many avenues of distraction - so that I feel better, in a manipulated way.
What dream did You give me, Lord?
Promises of bearing fruit, yes, promises that I am a planting of Yours, that too. Dream? Life? Is all that I am? Why does ministry flush right up against this whole idea of relating with people; with friends?
I'm. not. good. at. this.
And really, not good at much.
Why am I back in myself again?
And no, going out with him does not help.
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