Joy.

dont you admire kids?
their joy for life, their outlook is just so upbeat.
just ten years down the road, and my! what a difference.
you hardly see such exuberance.
some, yes. but no such unbridled zest,
no happiness unveiled by curtains.

ten years, twenty years, thirty years,
no matter the ages
aren't we still children?
dearly loved children of the Most High,
such precious gems in His eyes?
why do we still have the sorrows and the tears?
why do we still stress over the pressures here?

we are still held hostage,
captives of the world and its foolish sages,
locked in this pressure cooker,
for such a needless reason,
as our lack of faith.

blessings,
they feel more like special occasions,
when in fact, they are our daily rations.
in such plentiful supply that we should eat until we burst
and let the love and joy and peace and grace,
overflow into the world, which feels so cursed.

but we dont.
and i dont know why.

we have been justified.
by faith in Christ.
so i still dont know why,
in my everyday life,
in the studies so dry,
in times of family strife,
why i dont jump for joy.

by right, i should be.
the love of God should be overflowing from me.
and i should be experiencing that joy,
for free.