the big leap.

there comes a time, when awareness

morphs into a fearsome little devil

it creeps in, 

ambushes you, 

turns you against your very self. 

for that girl,

questions not yet answered in full,

obstacles denied their sizeable truth.

what would it take to anchor the soul

to a love, forged with more value than gold.

how can i know, 

my worth proclaimed,

words that will unfurrow my brow.

the heart aches, 

for a being not yet known, 

her strengths untold, 

her failures infinitely grown.

this, the created,

searching for the Creator

His fingerprints hidden under the dirt.

take that step of faith,

dear child

and come, know the One, 

it is He who called, 

you only have to come.

Yes, but,  

how do i even move?

these legs, 

they stand frozen in fear

the heart, 

where is the good cheer

my head,

filled with lies, clearly unclear.

and i am transported back to the time when all of the things that meant something to me were written off. when there was no one but me. 

find me, dont leave me here.