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16 “For God so loved the world,[i] that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him. 18 Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God. (Know Christ, know God. Un-condemned.) 19 And this is the judgment: the light has come into the world, and people loved the darkness rather than the light because their works were evil. 20 For everyone who does wicked things hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his works should be exposed. 21 But whoever does what is true comes to the light, so that it may be clearly seen that his works have been carried out in God.”

"Be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus." - 2 Timothy 2:1
As the reservoir empties itself into the pipes, so hath Christ emptied out his grace for his people. "Of his fulness have all we received, and grace for grace." ... Christ is the head upon which the oil is first poured; but the same oil runs to the very skirts of the garments, so that the meanest saint has an unction of the same costly moisture as that which fell upon the head. This is true communion when the sap of grace flows from the stem to the branch, and when it is perceived that the stem itself is sustained by the very nourishment which feeds the branch. As we day by day receive grace from Jesus, and more constantly recognize it as coming from him, we shall behold him in communion with us, and enjoy the felicity of communion with him. (Know Christ, know God) Let us make daily use of our riches, and ever repair to him as to our own Lord in covenant, taking from him the supply of all we need with as much boldness as men take money from their own purse.

God rested. God enjoyed. God created us to enjoy His creation, together. I ran, I hid. It's time to come out. Time to un-smear the name and character of my God. Time to preach the good news of Christ to myself, daily, as often as I need to. Time to taste, once again, of the sweetness of Christ and His love for me.

Grace and truth have always come together. I've always missed the point of grace. Can I see it getting better? Can I see the victory - better than last time? I'm not sure, time will tell. But I'm sure, that the first time I heard of grace, I knew its truth, and I'm sure that this time where I'm hearing it again will not be my last.

I expected much - but I expected much of myself.

It's time to expect of God. For the ability to see Him, to enjoy Him and through all of that, ultimately, to honour Him.