so i'm letting go

often, time has passed me by in an introspective blur. and this is the last piece left.. 

when there's a dissonance between knowing whats right and doing it, when somehow the disconnect between my thoughts and my feelings is too great. 

i've loved, and will continue to love - ultimately, it is a decision.

how it works out, or how i'm to live it out, i dont know.

because there are many times when, i fear i cannot anymore. 

moments which reveal my rotten heart. 

and like the dreaded dentist's drill, the revelation hurts. 

soon the soothing balm of God's love through His word comes,

and i rest secure once again, knowing that every day, all He asks of me is that one timid little "yes".

Waiting for the sunrise/ Waiting for the day/ Waiting for a sign/ That I’m where you want me to be

You know my heart is heavy/ And the hurt is deep/ But when I feel like giving up/ You’re reminding me/ That we all fall down sometimes/ But when I hit the ground

You lift me up when I am weak/ Your arms wrap around me/Your love catches me so I’m letting go/ You lift me up when I can’t see/ Your heart is all that I need/ Your love carries me so I’m letting go

I know I’m not perfect/ I know I make mistakes/ I know that I have let you down/ But you love me the same

And when I’m surrounded/ When I lose my way/ When I’m crying out and falling down/ You are here to 

I can see the dawn is breaking/ I am feeling overtaken with your love/ With your love/ I don’t know what I can offer/ In this moment I surrender to your love/ To your love