every ending is hard, and sad. and inevitably tinged with regret. and that regret lingers. manifesting itself in the form of sometimes pensive moments wishing that person could share in the day as well, others where questions asked are heard only by the empty playground under the silent night sky. more often than not, time does flow by, even forgiveness too.
the disappointments, hurt, anger, spite, sadness, even guilt - these things are gradually released into better hands. when there is no longer any disappointment nor frustration; it could mean one of two things. either we unpin the responsibilities of the discord off that person, or we unhook the catch that binds feelings of love and closeness to that person. it may not mean that we never talk again, but it simply means you mean no more to me than that other stranger sitting across the hallway. less than a stranger, in fact.
could i exist in the same circles and acknowledge you? over time, maybe, maybe not.
could i eventually work together with you, collaborate? yes, just preferably not.
but if what transpired isn't dug up and trashed out, then how could i ever trust the same you?
i'd be a fool to do so.
in every relationship, commitments are made; both spoken and unspoken. you dont spend time with someone you're not interested in knowing better. you dont willingly share in their joys and meltdowns if you dont care for them. nor do you initiate shared experiences that you both enjoy. and you jolly well do not open up to someone you do not trust. and so, if the better functioning one makes no persistent effort in restoration, then both become their own again. no responsibility for or to the other. when their lives means nothing much to you. the relationship ends there. and with it, the hope, the love, the joys and the trust.
so, i think,
thats it for now.
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